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我知道
不管我拿什么东西来和你们比较
都看起来微不足道

我没有要做比较。
我只是觉得很累。
不停地忙东忙西,
但没觉得得到什么满足感。

可能这就是我那么累的原因吧。
因为不停地奔跑,
但看不到终点,
所以觉得很辛苦。

我知道我没资格埋怨什么,
如果你不认同我,
就请当作不知道。
不需要让我觉得更渺小。

当我觉得困扰的时候,
最不想听到的是你无意地在我面前狠狠捅我一刀。

Mar. 8th, 2012

i know it isnt the best time. but i need to pen this all down before i lose the moment for it.

Just this week alone, i cried twice.
and had many other moments where i held back my tears.

not sure why i got so emotional, 
but this week has been a pretty tough week for me.
workload aside, it's the emotional torment that i've been going through with myself.

what i really want in life,
what im doing with my life,
and whether im going in the right direction.

what i've done right and wrong,
whether i have set my priorities right,
and how should i motivate myself to improve.

at the end of the day, im not sure if ive come up with any concrete solutions or conclusions,
but i feel really lucky to have these people around me when i really needed them.

to ber, thanks for giving me crash course for jap, for listening to me, and giving me all the advice i need.
for letting me show my weaker side to you and feel comfortable enough to pour my woes to someone.

to charlotte, even though we are miles apart in distance and in time, thanks for being there during this emotional period for me.

to changtai for teaching me accounting!!! makes a lot of difference when someone is actually willing to teach you everything step my step in detail. takes a lot of effort also given the busy schedule everyone is facing, and i really really appreciate that. 

to bro, we've really been through a lot together, at least i feel so. haha. Even though im still not convinced with some of the things you say about me, i really do appreciate that you try to make me feel more confident about myself. I got a shock when your eyes suddenly turned red just now, and when you said it was cuz you've seen me grow over this period of time, i was really touched. haha.
i can't see my own improvement, but i guess if it could make you tear it must have been quite an emotional moment haha.
anyway you said other people didnt praise you, i believe it's not because they dont think you are capable. more like you are too upz, they probably think you dont need the affirmation. but i really do believe that you are a composed leader, with well-thought out plans and goals for not just Sports in Hall 9, but also in whatever you are doing like studies and what you want in life. I really admire you for the confidence you have in yourself, and how you feel strongly for what you believe in. 

Thanks for bringing me through this wonderful and memorable journey.

haven been the most optimistic about uni life, but im starting to get a whole new perspective. i hold true to what ive said in the video, when i said hall 9 is family.
i dont know everyone here, but i can feel the love from some people who are truly dedicated to hall and are willing to help one another, and that is enough for me.
im disgusted.
like seriously?
irksome ttm.
but no matter what i do to salvage the situation will look wrong.
just thought that some people really dont deserve what they have.
humans are really selfish creatures.
urgh.

Jan. 29th, 2012

这是我不安感觉的原因吗?
不管怎么看都觉得不妥。
不会是生气了吧?:(

雨天

雨天 
词:小寒
曲:李伟菘

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只剩回头

除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么

你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留

你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

是否太晚 路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边

你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅 我的雨天
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
a series of unfortunate events, but things still ended off pretty well:)
im lovin my baby pink keyboard, the colour is so soft to the eyes and so friggin chio omg LOVE MAX.
and im so excited abt tmr cuz its gonna be a fun-filled day :)
Movie with chua in the morning, followed by k session with eug and amytan,
followed by k session with clique,
ad most likely vball session with lua at NUS.
ITS gonna be awesome. 

王俪婷 Olivia Ong - 海枯石烂

這幾天你在那個城市 
天氣一定晴朗
因為你就是個太陽

有空想念我的話 
就上線來說晚安
讓夢裡星光燦爛

別再 擔心我什么了 
別把我寵壞
只要 你平安回來
就夠浪漫

這幾天沒有你在
當然有些平淡孤單
但我感謝這孤單

讓我更加確定你是我缺少的那一半
完整我的那一半

*不怕明天的世界 會變成怎樣
每天看見你笑臉 我就心安
不管外面的世界 想變成怎樣
我們還有我們的 小小天堂 
喔 ~

我有你放在心上 
生命就有了重量
風來也不會飄盪

一起看海枯石爛
一起等地老天荒
慢慢愛 不慌不忙

我有你守在身旁
眼睛就可以勇敢
看歲月怎麼漫長

就算真海枯石爛
就算已地老天荒
還相愛 就沒遺憾
不遺憾

repeat *

Oct. 31st, 2011

我知道,也料到。
无所谓。

Oct. 20th, 2011

dont fall inside,
stay in the safe zone.
and dont be so bothered by it
cuz most of the time you think too much
now that explains why.
i screwed up, and i didnt even realise cuz i completely forgot abt it.
and im so distracted by what i failed to do that i cant concentrate on whatever im doing now.
whats wrong with my memory it keeps deteriorating and i keep forgetting important stuff.

moral of the story:
dont procrastinate, whatever you need to do, do it immediately
dont wait and forget.



fuck this shit.
such a failure.



so fail until i cant even find anymore excuses for myself.